There is a precious baby girl lying in my lap as I type this. She looks like she wants to sleep, but she won't stay sleeping for more than five minutes. Her heavy little eyelids flash open and her sleepy little drunken grin spreads across her tiny rosy face. She smells like Johnson's calming bedtime baby lotion - that heavenly blend of baby lotion scent and the lightest lavender scent. It's a smell I could curl up inside of and drift off to sleep. Her tiny little body is warm in my lap as I'm watching the snow fall heavily outside the window. Her eyelashes look long and dark as they flutter open and closed, trying to stay awake, but needing to fall asleep. She is the very definition of sweetness, of an angel, as she sleeps... soft, warm, sweet, tender, fragile, perfect.
She is two months old already. How much she has changed in those two months. I can barely remember her as a little critter, only sleeping, eating, and crying. I almost can't imagine her any different than she is right at this moment. This peaceful moment. She is now sound asleep and her limbs are like a rag doll's. Her head is resting on my left forearm and it teeters a little on my arm each time my left fingers move to type. She is growing and learning each day. It seems undetectable to most people, but I notice little changes. In just the past two weeks she has had many firsts. I noticed the day she 'found' her hand and tried getting it to her mouth. She watched it intently, carefully adjusting her movements as she noticed the reactions they caused. I noticed her first smiles and how she smiles when we greet her in her bed in the morning. She responds to our voices and our smiles for her. She responds when Gavin gets close to her... when she is upset and he lays down beside her or rests his cheek on her head, her breathing changes, she instantly calms. I noticed when she started holding conversations with us - really exchanging sounds. This started this week. If we coo at her, she gets all excited and she repeats it. She imitates many of the sounds we make, but most of her sounds are like a little stretched out gurgle. Gggglhə́ə́ə́ə́ə́ə́lhchl... gǵlhə́ə́ə́ə́... They're really the sweetest sounds.